hey hey
miss u so much my dear old worn out blog
lol
it's juz tat NO ONE'S here to change u
haiss
tat blogger pro is nt here to change ur skin

haiss
it's realli dmm stress in sec 3
now then i noe how stress they r
and noe wad
my chem gt 59
i was lik so wanting to cry
i didn imagine i would gt tat marks
and yt all my other frens gt much higher than me
even hakim gt better than me
im nt degrading him
but i reali cant imagine
im so sad
whenever i recall tis
i was lik so sad
it's lik every1 was lik gg up
and me
lagging below
i cant imagine wad will life b for me when i go up
will my chem fail???
next is my bio
it's lik only 62
i was lik another blow
another blow tat strike my tainted heart
I DUN WAN TIS
my bro gt better higher marks than me
i dun wan tis to b happening
: (((((((((

yeah
next
i went to be the audience of 2 debates
they were lik so pro
and was lik so woolala
lol
their was 1 who's called PEI huang
think so
from new zealand
and zoe's lik drooling over him
hahas
sec 3 life is nt at all nice
it's lik so ewee
i dun lik
i juz wan a cool unstressed life
bud i noe tat is impossible
mum always says tat i hafta work hard.....
it's nt i dun wan
bud it's gettin harder to breathe for me
things r gg unexpected
i cant handle it
i so wanna rise up to jc
and enjoy life
bud i noe i cant
these r part and parcel of life
i hafta learn to accept it
god noes wad i will becom when im outta sec 4
a mad gal?
a crazy person who goes ard giving stupid lectures??
i cant stand it
bud i will overcom it
hahas
im strong : ))))

gal if u reali wanna go,
i will let u go
i dun wan to b the 1 pulling u down
i noe im nt gd enugf for u
i noe tat
so
if u wanna leave
i wont stop u
i will let u go
even if it means breaking my heart
coz it seems much less laughter wif me
i seems to b making things worse
i wont stop u
u may go
i will try to accept it
i haf said
im strong
i will overcom it
i will bcom independent
i wont stop u : ))))

i wanna go
go to a faraway place where there are a place for idiots and stupids
i dun wanna live here
it's to challenging for me
i cant hold on
w/o all the essential things i once haf
i will fall
and it will nt b a surprise for me : )))

sign off
peixuan : ))))))))))
too happy to b happy
too sad to b sad : )

hey gal
where to start from?
lol
me olso nt sure
i haf once lost a fren
as close as u
she told me off tat very day when we broke off
i felt so damm lost on tat very day
tat day i didn even noe tat the fruit i was cuttin was already soaked wif my tears
tat was my past
and i didn wanna think abt it
ever since the day norman scolded u

the day was the ever heart-breaking i ever had
perhaps i was sensitive
or wad
u seemed to haf decided to drift away from me tat day
i was lik nt asleep the whole nite
thinkng abt u guys
i really had nt much energy to cope wif my work
im afraid i would lose u as well as floop my studies
i noe im selfish
BUT SEEING U WIF AIN AND SHA THEY ALL REALI VROKE MY HEART
u noe my character
IM EASILY JEALOUS
u knew it
even if a person i tok tyo nvr reply to me i wld b so sensitive so as to think tis and tat
and rmbr u were the 1 who consoled me told me tat ppl hafta their diffculties
tat was the reason tat i was willing to give u up to ain
okay to b fair
i dun wanna give u up
io tot over it
arent i better than her?
bud then ur actions gave me the answers
i noe im sensitive
bud i really dun wan ppl to think tat im their burden or wadeva
i haf a strong intergrity ( smth lik tat)
i dun deny
bud the way u ignored me was realli heart-wrenching
i really didn noe why u changed
but i noe the answer now
and it was all bcoz of me.

bud i juz dun wanna b hurt again
sorry
i noe im in the wrong
it's all my fault
i dun wanna my old wounds to touch salt
so i decided to let u go
i wanted to make myself give u up
hahas
didn noe tat u too felt the same way
i knew everything is all my fault
so i haf to apologize
u haf smth in u which doesnt allow u to tok to me
i noe u miss me
miss the talks and jokes we always had
how abt me?
i miss them too
tat was smth relaxing
which i wld take away the stress
now im damm stress
first my h/w
then my families
do u noe tat the cut finger cut was related to tis?
then my frens
im afraid of loneliness
i hate being abandoned
and im reali damm sorry

SORRY
i really haf no words to describe my sadness
i hope we can b lik b4
toking together and jokes as well
i noe tat ur frenship was a long one
and a sweet one too
i noe tat
i actually really tot u and ain and sha they all
so i didn wanna b ur burden
i didn wanna u to feel irritated bcoz of me
im nt tat kinda person
so im prepared to give up
really
im nt really sad
but a bit disappointed
coz i hafta gt a long film of memories wif me
engulf fo rthe rest of my life
and a bit disappointed
coz i didn bring the friendship to the full-stop of my life : ))
to b truthful tat wasnt some kinda tv dramas script
it was from the bottom of my heart
i can swear
and i olso swear tat i will do my best to seek ur forgiveness


I WILL
AND I WILL STICK TO U LIK A PIECE OF SHYT
OR A PIECE OF BUBBLEGUM AND NVR LEAVE U
EVEN IN THE TOILET
I SWEAR
AND I WILL BEGIN MY ACTIONS
NOW I SWEAR I WILL B WIF U
EVEN IF I HAFTA SHYT I WILL PULL U OVER TO THE TOILET AND MAKE U STAY K?
IM SORRY TAT I CANT LIK CRY LIK HAKIM
CRY AND LET MRS SOO LET U SIT BY MY SIDE
NEXT TIME
I WILL TOK AND TOK AND TOK
LIK HOW WE USED TO B
I WILL TRY AND SALVAGE TIS FRIENDSHIP
AND I OLSO SWEAR TAT I WILL NVR B SO GENEROUS
I WILL B EXTREMELY SELFISH
AND STINKINGLY STICKY
CAN?

sign off
the selfish,stinky sticky,sad,noble gal
and extremely SORRY to haf broke ur heart : (
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okay guys
sry to haf made u waited for my blog
hahs
seems tat my posts r quite important eh?
okay : P
erm..
letta me strat mif my sec 1 orientation camp
it was lik so... on the first day
coz some sec 1 was lik so damm shy
they were too shy to say or do anything
or even too hyper
and tok tok tok
and we scs hafta beg them to shut their mouth
hahas
it seems tat i hafta lost my voice after hours of shouting and cheering on the first day
i wanted to b hyper
so tat the sec 1s can learn from me
and bcom better
i mean nt reali better
but...
more hyper and involved in the activities and cheers
especially the MASS DANCE
hahas
we had to dance a cute dance
first of coz when we sc tried it out
it was a bit embarassing
but then i gt used to the dance and influenced my sec 1i
hahs
tat was the class which won the first for the
cheering competion
haha
congrats to FRAGILE SHAWN
who had lost his 20% of hopes on 1i coz they were somewad naughty?
think so
coz the hall was very very noisy so i didn reali pay attention to wad he was saying.
he was the one who taught the sec 1i their class cheers
lol
and i was the inspiration!!!
cool eh?
he said i look lik a person : )
okay

anyway im loyal to my cca k
hahas
for my cca day
all the eldds ppl were lik performing a scene extracted from footprints in the sand
lol
i was actually considered to b the experience 1 in the grp
bud then i felt so damm nervous
dunno y
then every thing felt lik coming out of my body
lik shit-ing etc
at tat instance i feel i hafta made a very very big sacrifice to my cca lea
my roles include all those eeeeeweeeee characters lea
lik whores, "free" stripping of COAT hahs
my frens even ask me
"R u gonna strip ur clothes again?"
i was lik so embarass front of her.
coz other i cant wear w/o my pashmina...(too EEWEEEEEE)
i swear the next script
i must b an innocent and those gd gd characters
no more these kinda roles for me.
anyway for the footprints in the sand,
it was supposed to b a serious, heart-wrenching scene
bud then the sec 1s were lik laughing all the way
luckily some of the teachers said tat the play was quite gd
hahs
of coz
all thanks to me rite?
a pity the mikes were soft
otherwise it wld b perfect
lol

hmm..
me juz came bak from mrs soo's huse
hahas
ate pizza, ice-cream and chips
can b considered quite full haha
i didn reali had the appetite
coz for lunch i had 1 packet of rice, 3 chicken wings and 2 packet of drinks.
hahaha pig eh?
i was lik so damm HUNGRY
it was over lunch time lea
then bcoz of my cca
i gave up my lunch
hahaha

okay hahs gtg now : )))
to bathe
haha
otherwise i wld b extremely smelly

sign off
tired and smelly
noble and courageous
peixuan!!!!!